When life happens, and you fall off the wagon.
As a Nutritionist, there is frequently and expectation that you are perfect. Somehow just able to be super healthy all the time. Now don’t get me wrong, there are a lot of health professionals out there that are, but what happens too many when life happens?
Take my story for instance:
I used to suffer crushing panic attacks coupled with anxiety. I was a hectic party girl, frequently spending day after day in the pub or club, I’m still very social but then my dad became ill, I watched him have a heart attack due to bad health choices and a stressful job and I wanted to make a change. My dad, he’s a very stubborn man (sorry Dad) but I thought, if I learned enough, he would listen to me and make better life choices. Longs story short, pan forward almost a decade and I had trained to be a fitness professional and spent 7 years picking up a further 2 diplomas in Nutrition and a degree in Nutritional Science. Surely he would listen?? Nope! But even still, surely I at least must have it all in the bag? Surely I should be able to concur any difficult life situation and keep along that straight and narrow. Wrong! Why? I’m a human being.
Just like anyone else, I have periods of my life where I find life hard, I fall off the wagon and go back to bad habits. I have a husband in a different country (USA) . I’m living in between my sisters and my friend’s house here in the UK. I don’t have access to cooking what I want when I want so have to grab things here and there, I have no anchor as my good friend Mark put it. I’m working long hours building up a busy business from someone’s sofa, or a spare room. So, yeah sometimes I reach for a pizza or a glass of wine. Just like you.
Here’s the difference, though. Here is what keeps me from spiralling out of control as seen with me previously. Historically when a bad spell hits me, I would have periods of time where I would go off the rails! Just abandon all good intensions and return to months of drinking too much, eating the wrong things and generally not taking care of myself. Stress is a pain in the butt when it comes to your health. Now, however, I may have a day where I eat white bread (and instantly regret it) or a few glasses of wine one evening (I don’t instantly regret it, but I do the next day) when times get hard. But sometimes, and more often I go for a walk, spend some time away from all the noise and get myself together. I wake up in the morning and make a super food smoothie after a good night’s sleep. I plan my meals, or if I know I may not easily be able to put something together, I am aware of the other healthy choices I have available to me, where ever my working day takes me. How did I do this? How did I achieve such a massive turn around in my behaviour (can I just say, I no longer suffer panic or anxiety)? Because I got help.
I have a history of self-sabotage, where things might go well then I will do something silly to make life more difficult. Thankfully I noticed this is myself long ago so it never got to crazy but I still do it to a certain extent, for instance when I’m scared of making a positive good move in life or I have a challenge, that should I push through will see me in really god stead at the other side, but I see the challenge as too big for me. Noticing that there were areas in my life, things about me that were holding me back from being a better person, I got help. I hired a coach, I went to see a counsellor and I stopped making excuses as to why I couldn’t be better and I started working towards a new improved version of me. See, this isn’t something that happens over one visit to the counsellor, or one session with a coach, it takes time. You have to relearn absolutely everything about you, understand why you make these changes and learn ways to make better ones. Life is always going to throw you a grenade from time to time but if you have someone standing by your side, encouraging you through bad times, telling you can do it and here is how you do THEN you get through it, what can touch you going forward?
It’s about now I’d like to thank my coach Liz Hancock and my group who constantly support me and help me through the rough times, lend me an ear and keep me going. Without them, I would not be where I am today, of that I am completely certain.
Throughout this, I know it is possible for you to do the same. It’s so much easier when you are not on your own when you have people around you that can shine a light down the path you should follow when you struggle to see it.
I hope you find your light too.
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